Oh , Hello To You ! Yes , You !



HAHAHA , uhrms . Its been like 5 days i didnt update my blog . I didnt even log in ! Hhaha , rabaaak ! Ishk , oke . Sry fr not posting . *sigh* Haiiyaa , I don`t even knw whether days getting better or worst about my prob . Its complicated yeaah . It`s been you're the one who made me fall in love wift you deeply manzs . & now , i dont knw why it end to be like tht ? It start like this . The 2nd or 3rd day of camp , I found out tht you like me . I just cant believe it ! I found out by all my friends . You're the one who start smiling to me wift ur sweet & cute smile , you`re start to talk to me & moree . I just smile bck & we had a talk . Well , days by days you made me fall in love wift you . I remembered & i knw you also remembered when at night we're having campfire , you sat beside me & start talking to me & we introduce ourselves . We talk & you made alot of jokes tht made me laugh on the day itself . You brighten up my day ! You followed me wherever i go . & we had a walk ard the canteen & schl tgt . Re-open schl , you're keep smiling at me & how can i frget all tht cos you're the one who made me smile all the time ! I'll never stop thinking of you in class . I just cant concentrate every minute cos i've been thinking abt you & the camp memories . I remembered , i was sad & not in a mood . U saw me i was like tht , you was panic . & asked ard frm my friend what had happen . You came to me secretly . Asking me what happen & stuffs . You cool me down . Ask me to went home & rest & takecare & more laa . & then , you smiled to me . You have been good to me all the times . & i appreciate it alot . When , we att , you were more good than i expected ! You're like my one & only fr now .



All the lies tht he made to everyone plus me . & all his behaviour tht always i've been asking to myself . What happen to you ? Why did he changed out of sudden ? Did I do wrong ? Do you still love me ? Do you even care abt me ? Do you take seriously abt our relationship ? The more the question was playing in my mind , the more making myself stress out & hurt me deeply . & yes , sometimes it made me jealous of something tht you done . But , i knw you wont realized it . Cos , u dont even care right ? Hellya . I dont knw why must you did this to me ? You sometimes dont like me to be like tht & you just gave up like tht ? Gosh ~ & how bout you dear ? You did tht infront of my eyes & did you knw it hurts me ? I knw , u dont even knw & dont even care right ? Its oke , i be patient fr all i can . But , till when ? Till when i have to like being patient & suffered frm you ? Seriously , can you stop it ? I've enough suffering abt ur attitude towards me & the way you treat me . I dont even knw how to start & end it slowly . Its soo hard to say to you . I've been asking ppl fr help also , i dont think you also dont bother right ? Haiish , his sometimes OK & sometimes was not . Gaaah , i dont knw what was in him . Well , only God knows . It seems tht the way ur attitude is making me hate you more than being in love wift you . But , i think , i just cant hate you just like tht cos i do still love you . You made me fall in love wift you like hellya & you just throw me away just like tht ? Haiish . I knw , i shldnt except ur stead . I`m just being stupid right ? I guess . I want ur old Hafidz . Not ur new Hafidz & new attitude . Well , now . I dont knw waht to do . I dont even knw whether shld i revenge ? Break ? or talk to him . I feel like just breaking up wift him but i just cant barely to loose him . Talk to him , like i said . I dont even knw how to start & how to end it & im just not ready to talk to him face to face wift saying out my feelings towards him & stuffs . Seriously , i`m not ready . Maybe writing a letter ? Hmphs , not sure yet . Revenge ? Yes , tht was my first aim . But , how to ? & i cant also bare to see his hurting inside . Although , he hurt me lotsa time . But still , i like cant do it cos i do still love him . Since , you wanna play this game .. I can also play the game oke ? I can play it more harshly or nasty oke ! & now , i dont knw how imma gonna start it .