It's really a nice surprise that my first entry here that eversince i online would be a Hari Raya entry! Well, like most of you, Hari Raya is a day where you look forward to meet your relatives, chatting, filling yourself up and of course giving and receiving money. You wake up feeling a little excited...come on you do right? Some celebrating with new babies, others with new partners by their sides.

I have been waking up to this day feeling a mixture of anxiety, sadness, hesitance and a little regret. Anxious because I wonder how my relatives would receive my siblings and I when we visit them. Sad because I'd see my mum busying herself with cooking and whatnots, and my dad with helping my mum, knowing we'd think for ourselves. But, not others. E.g, with house choir, we complain this and that about tired-ness. But, we should know, parents more tired than us. Hesitance because I wonder what will the day possess for us. Regret because for all that has happened, why couldn't things be easier on us?

So this concoction of mixed feelings have been brewing all Ramadhan, and finally ready to show itself on the first day of Hari Raya.

But Alhamdullilah, the tension slowly went off as family by family met us at my house as my grandma is staying with us and after my mum has shed tears when we all ask for forgiveness. It was all laughter then as we received guests, and with lots of food left over, the only thing I need to worry about now is having to eat lontong, sambal goreng and rendang for the next few days.

Hah!

So let's all release our inner vanity this day. Oh wait, we have done that already. Enjoy the pictures upcoming on i dont know when. HAHAHAHAA! Insyaallah.

There will be more to come. I bet you already know that.

Heh. Ijul, i miss you. Have a nice day ahead okayy Dear. Got duit raya, share with me. HAHA!

Alright, later people. More guests to be served! ;D