I`m Ahzahteel Razaleigh \m/ ♥Saturday, October 2, 2010♥
People change, things happen, attractions fade. When all else fails, I wish you well.Before you walk out of my life; Tell me… who helped you up when you were falling apart? Who was the one you chilled with for so long that the memories seem to all blend together? Whose shoulder did you cry on? Who are most of your inside jokes with?
Yeah, that’s right; ME. But if you really want to throw all this away, then be my guest.
Im sick & tired of your attitude dude. What else more you wanna blame me regarding your problem you have? What else more huh? What else! I've been sacrifcing alot of myself in helping you in your problem. And, like letting myself get into trouble with my parents and so do your parents. If anything, im not gonna bother to help you. Like seriously. And, if i do to help you, i got to responsible in you. Yes, you. But, you see, you just dont realise it. What you want is, 'kesenangan' in yourself you see. You suhca selfish! You think of yourself & yr boyfriend kabaikan only. Rather than your friend whom had helped you alot. And, have your boyfriend ever help or did to you smth in your problem that you face? In a good deed i mean.I guess, no. Perhaps, you only storytelling to him & yr boyfriend is a shoulder which you will cry on. Right? Only that? Wadaafuck! If you have problem, where do you find for? Your friend right. Why not your boyf? Why? Well, because, he cant help you. Ask yourself & see for youself babe. Okay? Im not gonna sound nor 'tegur' you about this. I will just shut the hell up & i wanna see how far you can go if im not there. Will you find for new one[S]? I guess so. Well, all this while i help you, i just realise that its worthless you see. Afterall i help you, what did i get? Nothing! Not even a thank you indeed. Hello, where's your courtesy dude? Sorry to say this. Your parents didnt teach you or wht? Pity you huh? Okay. Im seriously, tired. Tired of this. Tired to face your parents with being force to lie to your parents about this & that by you. Im tired too to always get myself into problems with my parents which actually i shouldnt get the blame to. Haiyy. Whatever!
For now, i put away my thoughts & mind to not think of this. But, i just cant. The more i wanna forget it & didnt want to hold my grudges, the more im hurt inside. I cry for her. Does she knows? No. And, those tears are useless. Really. For what? I seriously dont know wht should i do right now. Now, i can only express it to him. Only him. His the only one who understands me. Friends? Doesnt seems to care. I feel so lefted out. I feel that im not important for them anymore. I feel that im being ignored too. Its useless to tell them how i feel. Cos, they also cant help me at all. All i can do is to be strong & think positive.
I guess, i should listen to my mum & him. To not get involve in the things i shouldnt get involve & trouble myself. I realise it. And, i learnt. Thank you to both of you. I love you'll very much. And, to you dear, thank you for all your advice. I do really appreciate it. And, im glad that God met us together. And now, we're together too. Thank God that i have such a nice man with me that is understanding, caring, loving & more. Im fortunate to got you dear.
Its alrdy 3.30 am. I shall go to sleep now. GOONIGHT BABY.
♥WithLoves, N' Azatil Aisyah
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